So…I screwed up this week. Here me out.
I started out strong and even on the girls’ paint night that I hosted I snacked on healthy snacks. I walked on the treadmill but on Monday I started something new. A friend is selling a popular vitamin weight loss shake and I thought what harm could it do?
For three days I followed the recommendations and restrictions to a T. It was convenient to have just a couple of shakes to make and boiled eggs to pack for the day. Drinking my shake at the office made me feel fuller longer rather than waking up early and eating before 6 AM only to need a snack at 8 AM. I love boiled eggs and the deli meat-lettuce roll-ups were awesome (I think I’ll add this to my regular snack schedule. During this time I ate sensible dinners and low-fat/carb EVERYTHING and drank so much water that I spent most of my time in the bathroom.
I weighed myself the day of starting my diet (again, Monday) and right on track with what I weighed the week before 178lbs. This morning…I gained. Basically, I gained a pound a day! I was mortified. What else could I add to my already stressful life!
Here’s to a week of working to get the weight off and goals.
Yesterday, as you may have read, I completely failed and had a turtle sundae. Oh my was it DELICIOUS! This week I did try buckling down. I didn’t indulge in too much at girls night last weekend and I’m going to work SUPER hard on packing a cooler full of healthy stuff that I can have while camping with fellow heathens.
Compound all of this my body trying to heal from the overwhelming anxiety and not being active. Today I’m back on the wagon outside of walking on the treadmill. It’ll be late by the time I get home from my interview but I’ll make it up with a morning working workout and an extra long walk in the evening.
WTF! I’ve been good ALL week, meet and went beyond my activity points, ate different things and gained 2lbs! I know I’m super bloated because mother nature decided that it’s the week to be a completely bloated and emotional mess but COME ON!!! I’m ready to give up. My husband has encouraged me to give it another month. I want to tear up a bag of tortilla chips and queso dip. I’m going to reevaluate what I had this week and see if I didn’t calculate my servings and points correctly.
However, I did try something new. Edamame. I opted for a healthy version and omitted the olive oil and WOW! Guys! Boil these little guys up and toss with a seasoning of your choice. YUM. I think the favorite that I tried were the cajun seasoned edamame. I did a taco one that was good but I may venture to roast them with seasoning and see if I can get a crunch. I’m going to vent
Well, ladies and gentlemen, it seems that I have maintained the same weight for two weeks now. The last time this happened I ate more food and continued to walk almost two miles a day. Now that it’s winter I use the treadmill for 20 minutes but not almost every day. I could get more active and eat more so I’ll start there. But at least I didn’t gain any weight.
This seems like a lot but when I break it down, it really isn’t. Instant gratification comes from the daily project which also serves as another objective-portfolio 365-day project that I need. Writing more is something that I have slacked on A LOT! I have a deadline and a minimum word count. Drawing more will fall under last years goal of creating my own little comic. The difference is that I have a deadline and some criteria such as KEEP IT SIMPLE! Nothing to elaborate and I’ve already started simple sketching planning my character. Finding my happiness is through ALL these goals. Continuing my Asatru Heathen path brings me peace and helps me work on mindfulness. Unplugging is something that is greatly needed and will help me unwind at night. All of this ALSO needs a schedule. Without one I’m surely going to fail. 