A place where I can be creative and understand me.
Yesterday was a decent day all things considered. I did have an amazing cup of coffee but I had to get a chamomile tea to help sleep. The coffee is made by Death Wish and it has one of the most intense, smooth, robust flavors I have ever tasted. I was able to push through the rest of my day designing and even decided to share with a couple of people one of which was a woman that I caught talking about me. Finally Friday…we made everyone!
Prompt: Instrument
October is around the corner and I can’t wait. I did my weigh in, walked for 15 minutes, packed my lunch and going to firmly believe it will be a good day. That will more than likely change but it gives me a chance to adapt to change and learn.
Prompt: Learn
I’m seriously thinking about taking a half day at work and catch up on what needs my attention here at the house. My luck, I’ll get swamped at work and will barely get to eat lunch. Going to start with my story, breakfast, and hope that today goes well. Happy Wednesday everyone!
Prompt: Sand
I’m going to start off saying…I failed already this morning but plan on walking this evening. Second…I had the most relaxing and wonderful weekend. I didn’t worry much about anything. I lived in the moment and it was one of the most rewarding experiences. I’m going to catch-up then post later about events, ideas, and adventures. They may not be considered as adventures by normal standards but for me, it was.
I think it’s true that you’re are only as old as you think you are. I also think that I have missed out on a lot because I felt like I had to be an adult. I ended up being a wet blanket when I could have enjoyed so much more in life. I’m going to start trying to still be an adult but one that enjoys more in life.
9/22 Prompt: Youthful
I think if I believe that my mind, thoughts, and feelings as my space rather than a part of societies whole I wouldn’t let so much eat at me. Or at the very least, not have panic attacks about what others think about me.
9/23 Prompt: Territory
Frogs? What was I thinking about this prompt? At least I made myself smile this morning and hope ya’ll got a kick out the prompt too.
9/24 Prompt: Frogs
Yesterday was a huge FAIL but this morning I woke up deciding that I won’t let that bother me today. I think what pushed me was a friend reaching out this morning and telling me that she feels like her battle with depression is getting the best of her. I’m glad she reached out and wished more people would. It helped put things in perspective for me and I hope that opening up helps her. If someone reaches out to you, listen. Oh…ugh weigh in day today.
Prompt: Incandescent
After 2 years, I was approached by my hiring manager and was told that I would finally be able to do social media for the company. That’s why they hired me! It took them this long to figure out that the company needs some sort of online presence other than an outdated website that I’m not allowed to touch either. I’m super happy don’t get me wrong but why the change of heart? Was it the search history on my computer and my applying to other job activities?
Tomorrow is weigh in day but I have made a commitment to either write tonight or paint. The coin toss will happen after I cook dinner.
Prompt: Concern
I understand that people need to work to make a living. Unfortunately, here in the states that really doesn’t afford us any downtime when sick and unless we have vacation days to take we take a hit on payday. Our janitor came to work sick 3 days in a row…he touches EVERYTHING and now 3 other people and myself have the stomach flu. I have vacation days that I’m now forced to use so I can pay bills rather than actually using it for something let’s say more relaxing. I wish we at least got sick days but the company I work for isn’t compassionate like that.
Prompt: Remove
I woke up this morning with a renewed feeling. Walking on the treadmill was relaxing as I looked around at my decluttered living room. So relaxed in fact that I lost track of time and was late to work. I have had these many times in my life and during those moments I didn’t take the arguments as learning experiences. Looking back, I believe that they have helped me grow as a person in some way.
Prompt: Quarrel
As many of you may know this has been the week from hell for me. Yesterday, I ran around running errands and when I got home I didn’t feel relaxed or at ease. Isn’t home supposed to be a place where a person can go to relax? I looked around and decided that it was time to declutter my living room and back area where my treadmill is sitting. I purchased simple cube organizers that placed the important items on top (my owl knick-knacks) and inside I hid shoes and other eyesores that didn’t have a proper place. Everything else…tossed in the trash. Items that I haven’t touched in years or that didn’t serve a purpose anymore.
This morning I woke up feeling at ease and enjoyed a cup of coffee. My family and I went to breakfast, my husband offered to do laundry so I can write and make applesauce. When he’s done we are going to the local hardware store and purchase items for a firepit that I have been desperately wanting along with something to kill mosquitos. I tried the home remedies and nothing is helping so now it’s full-on chemical warfare. Before I wage war I’m going to catch up on my stories. Then the rest of the day I’m going to do things that I enjoy…maybe even some painting.
9/15: Introduce
9/16: Wake
Today is my daughter’s birthday, I failed the weigh-in (by my standards), walked on the treadmill, and REFUSE to let anyone make me feel inferior. In fact, I just finished an order request with art that took 6 hours to complete and another woman took credit for it as she was staring at MY computer screen. I could’ve blown up at the person in front of everyone but instead I just casually added to the conversation that it took 6 hours to draw. Sharp looks were thrown at the woman by other but I’m ok with that too. Yes, I’m busy here at work and hit the ground running this morning. I’m just now getting to my 6-words. I have learned over the years that’s it’s ok to burn a bridge that I built.
Prompt: Bridge
I’m not enjoying this new Gutenberg template for writing.
After yesterday, I decided to apply to several jobs and received a callback. Yes, it’s from an employer out of town but a commute is better than staying here in a toxic work environment. I know I gained weight (checked the scale even though weigh in is tomorrow) and combine that with my coworkers-I’m feeling not myself. Let’s try the 6 words. Prompt: Animated
Today is awful all around.
Ever feel like a fuck up first thing in the morning? No sooner I walked in the door this morning, my supervisor jumped all over me because I screwed up an order yesterday. Here’s the deal, I can own my mistakes and normally don’t get upset but this…this was uncalled for. She and 2 other women were talking about what a ‘dumbass’ I was and that one needs to double check my work. What they ALL didn’t realize is that I had walked in and overheard the ENTIRE conversation that was taking place. Not only did I feel anger but betrayed by someone who I have taken up for several times. Instead of letting me learn from my mistake it was an experience that doesn’t make me want to try laying tables up ever again! Now I’m a blubbering mess that wants to punch something…HARD. Instead, I’m going to try today’s prompt. I think the prompt word is very fitting.
Prompt: Maddening
I’m not feeling too inspired but I know because of the exhaustion that I’m feeling. I looked the word up for a definition and it can either mean boring or it could mean earthly rather than heavenly. That reminded me of the Mortal Instrument series (read them all) and that often humans that didn’t have supernatural capabilities or shapeshifters were known to me mundanes. Now I want to write a shapeshifting story…ugh!
Prompt: Mundane
I tend to be the person that takes something that bothers me and brood over it. I do it more than I should and it’s just wasted energy. I worked and worked on this prompt trying to make it a positive one.
Prompt Word: Dwell
It was a rough night and my walk this morning suffered. Flashbacks are not for the squeamish. Imagine living your worst life experience, amplified while you sleep without having control over what’s in your dream. Well, maybe other than jerking awake covered in sweat and tears but nothing else. I’m going to paint and write today. Those are my only goals (other than counting those points) and I need to prove to myself that I can get past the last couple of days. I also want to thank everyone for the encouragement to find the courage to continue sharing and practicing creativity.
Prompt Word: New Heights
I typed and deleted. Type and deleted. There is so much going on in my head both positive and negative (mostly negative at the moment). I did get up and take my walk and I think I’m ready to add my walk to every morning instead of every other morning. I hope that I can imagine another page or two for my project.
Prompt Word: The Visionary
