Saturday Stints

Saturday is my day to get all the errands completed even when the budget gets tighter than what was expected. Groceries are first and then my photo for the day which I’ll be trying to capture in a town over since that’s where I pick up groceries. Then it’s trying to poorly draw my comic for the week. If it brings a giggle then so be it.

Then it’s Thor’s Blot tonight with the kindred and I’m just trying to hammer out some details that were not mentioned on the event page. This means possibly putting a dish together at last minute with as little funds as possible.

Now, in a panicked fast voice read on: I need to pick up groceries but leave enough money left over to possibly make a dish to pass at the blot tonight, then I need to get a photo for my 365 Day project because I CANNOT flake out on that if I want to get better at cell phone photos. Oh, I need to edit them and post too. I can do that from my phone if I have to but I hate it. What is my comic going to be about this week? Ugh, fuck it. I’ll wing it. Oh, I need to look for one of my wacoms and PRAY that there is still software somewhere for me to download. I got on the treadmill this morning but I better make sure and eat low points today because if there is food at the blot I would want to eat. Damn the mead, I’m going to have to dip in my weekly points. Not a problem I have almost a full bank. Shit, I need to put money in the kids’ lunch account, and gas. Gas needs to go in the car. It’s almost 6 in the morning I if I look now I can find the tablet and doodle in peace before the kids get up. Too late, I heard legos being dumped in the floor upstairs. Leftovers, the kids can have leftovers tonight and the younger one goes with us.

This is almost exactly what it’s like with my anxiety but what people are not seeing is the depression because all I want to do is crawl back into bed and forget what all needs to be done and went through my head. I know I have forgotten something and will remember it when it’s past time to be done or due. Off to look for one of my archaic Wacom tablets. Happy Saturday everyone!

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From Yule to Medieval Times

These past few days have been emotional and great all at the same time. I celebrated and experienced (somewhat) my first Yule with the kindred. I was still sick with the stomach bug but made it through the Sumbels and ritual. During this time my husband and I are trying to find each other again and that is proving to be a longer goal that I once thought. Over a decade of being together, you start to feel like strangers all over again. Christmas Eve, I surprised everyone with a trip to Medieval Times. The only way that we could pull that one off was an online discount, then another at check-in for a better upgrade, and not staying at a hotel which meant driving a total of 8 hours. As your kids get older that holiday sparkle fades in their eyes. The best gift I got was seeing that sparkle come alive again in their eyes as they watched the entertainment.

From Yule to Medieval Times (Friday-Monday), we were going non-stop. Then comes Christmas day when my mom decided to invite her and her boyfriend over. I hadn’t planned much for dinner and ended up throwing something together for 7 people, in an hour. Being sick and tired from driving I didn’t want anything to do with the kitchen. Next year I think we will do a longer Yule celebration since there is some debate on the holiday lasting 3 days or 12 days.

Today, since we didn’t get to do our family games like tradition thanks to family stopping by, I’m ordering pizza and we are doing a gauntlet of games. We will be playing Cards against humanity, exploding kittens, Stranger Things monopoly edition, and some classic Nintendo 2 player game battles. This weekend I have plans for more Havamal study since I learned so much during Yule. I have some wood burning to do and other things to set up my area. Pictures and whatnot of my progress will surely make a debut here. I’m slowly feeling like myself after the huge interview fail and working even harder on my web development course. Maybe marketing graphic design isn’t for me. All the great advice, positive words, and stories from my readers helped in more ways than one. Thank you, guys.

How was your holiday? Traditions new and old? Happy Wednesday everyone!

Weighing In On Weighing In: Roller Coaster Recap

When I stepped back from my writing, art, and blogging I also stepped back posting my journey losing weight. During this time (still struggling to find time to write/post), I was still dieting and trying to find my magic number of activity points and food points. THIS IS NOT WHERE PEOPLE NEED TO STOP READING AND DIET SHAME. This is a roller coaster recap because I experienced a significant weight gain and made I was capable to examine that week for possible causes. Let’s start the next week following the point when I stopped posting which was Week 20 weigh-in was 177lbs.

  • WEEK 21 10/18: 176lbs
  • WEEK 22 10/25: 178lbs
  • WEEK 23 11/1: 175lbs
  • TODAY WEEK 24 11/8: 172lbs

Can you see wk 22? I gained 2lbs and the following week I lost the 2 that I gained plus another one. This is what I think happened. STRESS! I wasn’t intaking more calories and my exercise level even though it was less than normal, was still the same. The only difference that week was the stress at my job.  The run down. I was asked to complete a very large project. I started with a layout example that took 3 weeks to put together for a first draft. I sent the piece to my hiring supervisor and he said, ‘I don’t like it. It’s ugly.’ Instead of snapping back I told him ok, what would you like to see in edits. He gave me a list and before the conversation was over I asked him some questions to ask the other members of the team.  End conversation, begin my rant to my co-worker, layout #2 in beginning. The edits were easy enough just tedious and I received an email from the hiring supervisor that answered the questions I had concerning the informational copy. With the questions being answered, I realized it would change the layout AGAIN. I know this is long but follow me. I emailed a rough layout of what a page layout would look like-which is now different from the edits asked to be made (and now version 3).

I did something radical. Something SO unheard of that I should have been SHOT. Well, at least that’s what it felt like after my actions. I involved the OTHER team members. You would think doing an adult action such as this would be praised but it was the complete opposite. Other members involved caused my hiring supervisor to stomp his feet and QUIT the team! A week later, he took away my multimedia design project we were launching on Facebook. The reason he hired me he took away but without telling me. He just started doing everything. Heartbroken and probably the lowest I EVER felt with my career I was 2 seconds from quitting and applying at Walmart. Instead, I am now looking into other jobs and trying to figure out how to work from home.

Why the long explanation? Well, I’m afraid no one would understand the gravity and to lead into STRESS can wreak havoc on a diet. The next week I lost and still losing. He’ll be on site the week of Thanksgiving and need to figure out how to make myself scarce.

The Goodies

I have been changing things up to help with continual weight loss. I have tried a Buffalo Chicken salad. This is now my GO TO salad. Basically, you’re going to need mixed greens (iceberg is a must), finely chopped celery, chopped cucumber, chopped green onion, chopped carrots, chicken breast (3 ounces),  1 tablespoon of buffalo wing sauce (I found that Sweet Baby Ray’s brand is 1 point per tablespoon), and a couple of spoonfuls of my Ranch Greek Yogurt DipMix the dip and wing sauce together and pour over all your salad goodies and YUM! I wanted to add Bleu cheese but unfortunately, my store doesn’t carry it. Or at least it was out of stock when I went. If you do add the cheese and watching your waistline like I am, only a tablespoon. The Yogurt dip is only two ingredients: plain non-fat Greek yogurt and a tablespoon of dry ranch dressing mix.

I also enjoyed a BBQ chicken pizza using flat-out bread, chicken breast, sugar-free BBQ sauce, fat-free cheddar cheese, and red onion. The entire thing was only 3 points and I couldn’t even finish it. I was also adding pumpkin to my quick 0 point chili and cream of wheat. This was filling and added extra fiber and flavor. Also, a simple shrimp, cucumber, and dill salad. This was shrimp chopped, cucumber chopped, green onion chopped, dill chopped, a tablespoon of light mayo, 2 tablespoons of non-fat Greek yogurt. Mix and YUM! I usually have a slice of 45 calorie wheat bread.

Week to come goals: find another job prefer one to be online, be more active, and try to not stress. 30 pounds are gone and hoping to lose more this week. Happy Thursday everyone!

Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 17

This has been a much better week both work and family wise. I have stopped worrying about my daughter’s decision about moving to be closer to her biological father. That is her choice, she is an adult, and I don’t have to have anything to do with her right now. I’m no longer responsible for her well being. So, I let go of all of those feelings.

I haven’t been meeting my activity points by 10 but I’m staying active. The treadmill walks in the morning seem more intense but it helps me get the stress from work out of my system. I haven’t experimented much with recipes and stuck to what I know. That Tuscan pumpkin soup is my new fav right now and fills me up.

I did it, I lost the two pounds I gained and hope this coming week I can lose more. Here’s to another week, everyone!

6 Word Story: 8/10

I really wanted to just lay in bed and not walk this morning. Not really doing much in the last few days my body begged for me to become one with the bed. I walked. I could feel the prompt word on a personal level from the get-go.


Prompt: Struggle

Struggles are opportunities to understand strength.

Doodle(s)wash: Belated 6/28

What is wrong with me? Last night I was exhausted but I’ve been feeling pretty good. I called my doctor, worried that something might be seriously wrong. She asked me general questions then asked how it was going to work. After spilling everything out she explained that stress can cause exhaustion. Try to practice my exercises and do something relaxing. You know what I did? I fell asleep. Waking up a few hours later and went to be and slept until this morning. I didn’t want to fall behind because I have a busy day ahead of me not to mention a busy weekend of writing. Oh, and planning Fenton and haunted road trip in October.


Prompt Word: Popsicle

PAIN-ting

To make a long story short (which is difficult being both southern and Irish) I was placed on the floor at work today. Being that my back is killing me so much so that I’m dependent on the meeting pad,  it’s difficult to paint, sketch,  and write. Hopefully tomorrow not only can I go to work but also resume my artistic expressions. P.S. I don’t like doing this from my phone. Have a great night everyone.

Doodle Delay

I have been really distracted today with writing and then chores and before I knew it it’s dinner time. What am I cooking? Nothing! I have cooked every night this week and leftover needs to get eaten. Not to mention last night the flashbacks were more real than I could ever remember. More than likely due to stress or a conversation. But, I say down, put in my headphones, with some powerful tunes (that mean a lot to me) and doodled to my little heart’s content.


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Random Tuesday

My brain hurts.  Stress at work not because of my requirements but because of two supervisors basically having a pissing contest. My anxiety was so bad that I couldn’t concentrate to cook dinner or write a short story.  So my random doodle was just the day of the week. By the way my husband picked up tacos so I didn’t have to cook.


Prompt Word: Tuesday

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