Weighing In on Weighing in With Another Gain

I could write about what a failure I am about not losing all the pounds I gained over Thanksgiving. I could write about giving up and go ahead and eat whatever I want. I did one of those, ‘look at the scale’ shrugged my shoulders and made some coffee. This is because I’m surprised it wasn’t a ‘gain’. I at things…forbidden things that weren’t easily measured in points. The cookies and cupcakes for my birthday were yummy as hell. Then I realized something else…my hands are puffy. Maybe a little bit too much TMI but it’s that time of the month coming up. I have been able to control my cravings before but when it’s my birthday I’m leaving no cookie left behind.

All this means is that it’s going to take a bit longer to reach my goal weight. I’m not fully giving up and have already packed my lunch and breakfast menu planned. Today my points rollover and I plan on making the best of them (even though I dined on meatloaf and mashed taters…hell even a biscuit). Another huge change with the program I’m doing, is apparently, I don’t need as many activity points? They changed how they calculate that so I need to read the article more thoroughly.

I passed my first two quizzes for my web development course so I’m going to focus on that.

Happy Thursday everyone…eat the cookie, it’ll be fine 😊

 

Weighing In on Weighing In: Post Thanksgiving Scale Woes

I knew going into the holiday of yummy gut-busting food that I was going to partake and try EVERYTHING. It was a firm decision and I knew that there could be regrettable consequences. I fearlessly made a plate of turkey and ALL the fatty YUMMY trimmings. I had wine and both kinds of pie. Truth be told, my treadmill has seen my feet in days (cue Picture). Then there was the dinner at mom’s house. I wasn’t that hungry from the surrounding situation but I ate nonetheless. Then there was the shopping which included a fattening breakfast, REAL creamer, a bloody mary, and 3 stops at Starbucks. During the following week, I ate leftovers and some salad.

After 4 days of eating all the FORBIDDEN food (because apparently, I don’t know what moderation is), I reigned myself in foolishly thinking that if I stop eating like an unsupervised kid at the fried food on a stick stand that I could trick my body and not gain ANYTHING. WRONG. Your body KNOWS EVERYTHING! There isn’t a mind over matter (or girth), no will it and it will be, not even a prayer could save the pounds from reacquainting themselves with my thighs. Nope. I gained 2 pounds. I knew that my weigh-in day could possibly include a toddler-sized tantrum consisting of rolling around on the floor, ugly crying, and demanding to know why after seeing the scale. So, I made sure that I had everything I needed for a hot shower so I can relax and reflect on the gain and how to get back on track. It helped…ish.

Back on the wagon in full force is my goal for this week. I think my goal activity point is in the 40s and I’m not going to eat all my weeklies. I also discovered that adding higher point value foods throughout the day kept me fuller longer when I was trying to trick my body. Here’s to hoping that I lose SOMETHING this coming week.

I have also started my web developer course (needed to update my coding skills) and continued my writing course. I hope that keeping busy in the evenings along with getting on the treadmill I’m less likely to drag the diet wagon in the woods and set it on fire. PS-This post had to contain a little humor. Happy Thursday everyone!

Weighing In On Weighing In: 1lb FAIL

This week (wk 25) I enjoyed more sweets than I should have. I also didn’t track or accurately track my food. Compound all of that with an explosive argument a couple days ago with my husband I’m not surprised of the gain. With the focus this week more on trying to find a job that I would be happy and less on my diet made me realized I can’t just grab and go.

BALANCE! I need to find a happy medium balance. So, I’m writing, checking job boards, reading emails, and other computer stuff really early in the mornings. I am getting busy at work but I have made a point to check my blog, read other blogs, and comment during my breaks at work. I run errands and be a mom, cook dinner, and then get on the treadmill. I did manage to meet all my activity points for the week which is a goal I haven’t met in almost 3 weeks. I will work more on my balance of goals with my life.

NSV (non-scale victories) is something that I haven’t bragged about but this morning even though I gained a pound I was able to fit into a pair of jeans that I haven’t worn in a year! They were hiding in the back of my closet and the ONLY reason I tried them on was that all my other jeans are all getting too big. They slid on-COMFORTABLY! Meaning my butt didn’t look like two pigs fighting under a blanket (what movie is that quote from?).

I have a goal for all my goals and we’ll see how next week goes. Happy Thursday everyone!

Weighing In On Weighing In: Roller Coaster Recap

When I stepped back from my writing, art, and blogging I also stepped back posting my journey losing weight. During this time (still struggling to find time to write/post), I was still dieting and trying to find my magic number of activity points and food points. THIS IS NOT WHERE PEOPLE NEED TO STOP READING AND DIET SHAME. This is a roller coaster recap because I experienced a significant weight gain and made I was capable to examine that week for possible causes. Let’s start the next week following the point when I stopped posting which was Week 20 weigh-in was 177lbs.

  • WEEK 21 10/18: 176lbs
  • WEEK 22 10/25: 178lbs
  • WEEK 23 11/1: 175lbs
  • TODAY WEEK 24 11/8: 172lbs

Can you see wk 22? I gained 2lbs and the following week I lost the 2 that I gained plus another one. This is what I think happened. STRESS! I wasn’t intaking more calories and my exercise level even though it was less than normal, was still the same. The only difference that week was the stress at my job.  The run down. I was asked to complete a very large project. I started with a layout example that took 3 weeks to put together for a first draft. I sent the piece to my hiring supervisor and he said, ‘I don’t like it. It’s ugly.’ Instead of snapping back I told him ok, what would you like to see in edits. He gave me a list and before the conversation was over I asked him some questions to ask the other members of the team.  End conversation, begin my rant to my co-worker, layout #2 in beginning. The edits were easy enough just tedious and I received an email from the hiring supervisor that answered the questions I had concerning the informational copy. With the questions being answered, I realized it would change the layout AGAIN. I know this is long but follow me. I emailed a rough layout of what a page layout would look like-which is now different from the edits asked to be made (and now version 3).

I did something radical. Something SO unheard of that I should have been SHOT. Well, at least that’s what it felt like after my actions. I involved the OTHER team members. You would think doing an adult action such as this would be praised but it was the complete opposite. Other members involved caused my hiring supervisor to stomp his feet and QUIT the team! A week later, he took away my multimedia design project we were launching on Facebook. The reason he hired me he took away but without telling me. He just started doing everything. Heartbroken and probably the lowest I EVER felt with my career I was 2 seconds from quitting and applying at Walmart. Instead, I am now looking into other jobs and trying to figure out how to work from home.

Why the long explanation? Well, I’m afraid no one would understand the gravity and to lead into STRESS can wreak havoc on a diet. The next week I lost and still losing. He’ll be on site the week of Thanksgiving and need to figure out how to make myself scarce.

The Goodies

I have been changing things up to help with continual weight loss. I have tried a Buffalo Chicken salad. This is now my GO TO salad. Basically, you’re going to need mixed greens (iceberg is a must), finely chopped celery, chopped cucumber, chopped green onion, chopped carrots, chicken breast (3 ounces),  1 tablespoon of buffalo wing sauce (I found that Sweet Baby Ray’s brand is 1 point per tablespoon), and a couple of spoonfuls of my Ranch Greek Yogurt DipMix the dip and wing sauce together and pour over all your salad goodies and YUM! I wanted to add Bleu cheese but unfortunately, my store doesn’t carry it. Or at least it was out of stock when I went. If you do add the cheese and watching your waistline like I am, only a tablespoon. The Yogurt dip is only two ingredients: plain non-fat Greek yogurt and a tablespoon of dry ranch dressing mix.

I also enjoyed a BBQ chicken pizza using flat-out bread, chicken breast, sugar-free BBQ sauce, fat-free cheddar cheese, and red onion. The entire thing was only 3 points and I couldn’t even finish it. I was also adding pumpkin to my quick 0 point chili and cream of wheat. This was filling and added extra fiber and flavor. Also, a simple shrimp, cucumber, and dill salad. This was shrimp chopped, cucumber chopped, green onion chopped, dill chopped, a tablespoon of light mayo, 2 tablespoons of non-fat Greek yogurt. Mix and YUM! I usually have a slice of 45 calorie wheat bread.

Week to come goals: find another job prefer one to be online, be more active, and try to not stress. 30 pounds are gone and hoping to lose more this week. Happy Thursday everyone!

Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 20

I woke up this morning not all that optimistic but it was also combined with my mood from yesterday. The only bright side that I can see in today’s weigh in is the fact I didn’t gain. I really wanted to lose some more but what person on a diet doesn’t? I know what my problem was with this week. Maybe a few things that I haven’t been doing that I’m supposed to. I haven’t been drinking water like I should. I haven’t been walking as much as I should. I haven’t demonstrated the willpower to refuse treats.

This upcoming week: drink water, walk more, say no more, and take more time for me…more.

I didn’t experiment with any more soup recipes as I still have my curry lentil, Tuscan pumpkin, and rustic ratatouille soup in the freezer that I have been enjoying. I may be absent for a while but that has to do with finding time for myself to write if my family allows me that time. Here’s to another week. Happy Thursday everyone!

Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 19

I’m a little disappointed in myself that I only lost 1 pound but I’ll take it. I mean, truth…confession. I had the diet of an unsupervised child at the county fair with a pocket full of cash. I had a really dark YUMMY Scottish beer, mead, several smores, and let’s not mention the handful of chips here and there. Then add me not walking as much ended up not losing as much as I hoped. This morning, I forced myself out of bed, went through my socials replying and reading while walking. Packed my lunch, started my breakfast, you know all the adult stuff.

To date, I have lost a total of 25lbs. I’m now officially at the weight when my doctor told me to watch my weight and lose 10-15lbs. I don’t think I can with Thanksgiving and Winter Nights ahead but I think I have a game plan. I’m going to be REALLY good during the week of holiday feasting THEN I will enjoy my meal without worrying myself sick. I plan on adding recipes and calculating points so I don’t do too terrible. I will also need to add more time to my walks.

My Recipe Share for the Week:

So much YUM in this soup and at 0 points it was really filling.

Rustic Ratatouille Soup

  • Eggplant (large) chopped
  • 2 zucchini (medium) chopped
  • 2 Red bell peppers chopped
  • Onion (large) chopped
  • Garlic (2 cloves) minced
  • Italian seasoning
  • 4 cups of vegetable broth
  • 26oz can of crushed tomatoes
  • salt and pepper to taste
  • Cooking spray

All you have to do is roast your veggies in the oven at 450° for 40 minutes (stirring half way through). While veggies are roasting saute onion and garlic. When the veggies are done add to the pot of onion and garlic, add broth, seasoning, and tomatoes. Let simmer and adjust seasoning accordingly. ENJOY!

25 more pounds to go. Happy Thursday everyone. My Inktober sketches will be done tonight so stay tuned 🙂

Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 18

This past week I really learned to let go of a lot of things that were out of my control. I’m also trying to control my feelings. Not so much as to be cold but more reserved at least. My stress level is through the roof and I’m trying to take things in stride or not at all.

I’ve been completely indulgent in my diet and didn’t walk as much. I regretted every bit as I got on the scale. I didn’t go over my weekly points and counted EVERY point for my cheat days and ended up losing 2 more pounds. I have made a huge batch of Tuscan pumpkin soup and those are in the freezer on the ready and so is my chili. I even enjoyed a glass of mead. I think having the fire and family was a huge stress reliever and helped a great deal. I have lost a total of 24lbs. Even though it wasn’t and still isn’t easy I think I can do the almost 40lbs to reach my goal weight. I meet with my doctor next month to see if my goal weight is healthy for my body. It may need to be lower or higher but that’s why I made the appointment.

My staples this week have been my two fall soups (pumpkin and a 3 bean chili) but I may try to do a pumpkin chili and jalapeno poppers. I know they are going to have to be baked. That much I know. I have just been craving them and hope to recreate something that is yummy and satisfying. I’m wondering if I was exercising too much for my body to hold onto fat? Is there such a thing as doing to much exercise? I was doing almost three miles every morning now I’m down to 15 minutes a day. This upcoming week will be experimental to see if I found my magic number of exercise and food intake. 15 minutes and most of to all my weeklies or will I have to walk more or will I have to walk more and eat less again? Something has jump started my weight loss back up and wanting to know if I found my sweet spot.

Here’s to another week of trying.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 17

This has been a much better week both work and family wise. I have stopped worrying about my daughter’s decision about moving to be closer to her biological father. That is her choice, she is an adult, and I don’t have to have anything to do with her right now. I’m no longer responsible for her well being. So, I let go of all of those feelings.

I haven’t been meeting my activity points by 10 but I’m staying active. The treadmill walks in the morning seem more intense but it helps me get the stress from work out of my system. I haven’t experimented much with recipes and stuck to what I know. That Tuscan pumpkin soup is my new fav right now and fills me up.

I did it, I lost the two pounds I gained and hope this coming week I can lose more. Here’s to another week, everyone!

Weighing In on Weighing In: Sabotage Wk 16

Just because you don’t post it doesn’t mean it’s not real…I know I didn’t post about my weigh-in yesterday but I did weigh in. Before I go into my goals and what I plan on doing differently, I would like to say that I know how to sabotage myself. I did it out of comfort and depression. Going from feeling like I can handle anything to I’m the worst person in the world.

Yes, my daughter had a miscarriage and we were all sad but she has her whole life ahead of her. I gave her my sympathy but also encouraged her to go to school. The same day that this occurred she was moving. She canceled the move back with us and instead in Texas because she told me her fiancé found a job there. I accepted that at face value and something nagged at me…why Texas? That’s when the truth came out. She found her biological father. I’m ok with that as she is doing something that I could never get him to do which is acknowledge her as his daughter. He signed his rights over because he couldn’t afford $32 a week. My father and uncle helped me while I went to work to help raise her. She literally slapped everyone in the face in the family with this move but what’s worse is she lied about it. I have completely written her off at the moment. I’m hurt and betrayed. Am I wrong? Probably but the truth is, I’m happier not worrying or thinking about her. Ultimately this is her decision and she is an adult.

With the emotional week, I did overeat, slept in, not walk, and didn’t really take care of myself. Why am I letting so much dictate my feelings? I know I can be stronger than that. I have woken up early and walked on the treadmill and making sure I eat a proper meal and stay within my points. My husband has been a HUGE support as he didn’t let me pick up smoking because of stress and compromised my wanting a HUNK of chocolate cake with a lower point chocolate chip cookie (and still stayed within my points). I ate soup that I prepared and froze and indulged in good fats in moderation (so far). I learned what self-sabotage is and trying my best to recognize this.

My Recipe of the week:
Let get real…pumpkin EVERYTHING is EVERYWHERE and even earlier this year. I see more sweet than savory recipes but it’s getting to be soup weather and played with pumpkin soup. I know…’eww’ you’re probably saying to yourself. Pumpkin is a very versatile ingredient and is REALLY good savory.
You’ll need:

  • 1 Can pumpkin (not seasoned or sweetened)
  • 1 Onion
  • 3 Cups low sodium chicken broth
  • 1 Can White Cannellini beans or your favorite white bean
  • 1 Tablespoon of chopped garlic (I used more because I love garlic)
  • Sage, salt and pepper to taste
  • Blender or food processor

Spray pot with cooking spray and sauté onion and garlic until the onion is translucent. Add pumpkin, broth, and beans. Simmer for 30 minutes. In small batches blend soup and add back into the pot and add seasoning. Simmer for 20 more minutes. It’s filling and I have added grilled chicken breast for more protein and my own toasted croutons.

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