I am learning something new almost every time I try and paint something. Today I had the unfortunate circumstance of learning a new trigger for me. I almost gave up my blog, writing, painting, everything that calms me and gives me something to look forward too. I did everything possible to stay away from my computer today. I cleaned the car out, grocery shopping, cleaned the fridge, hell I even shaved the dog (it’s his grooming time).
I told my husband everything that was happening and he said, ‘If you need to quit, then quit. There is no reason to feel ashamed or bad about yourself because of it. But, would you really be ok with that? Or would you spend your time in the bed? Would you really let someone make you feel like the worse possible you all over again?’ I hated him for that or rather I hated when he was right. So, I sat down and painted and even started a short story. I think after dinner I might even work out some Fenton Friday brainstorming. Who knows.
Prompt Word: Trees
This little affirmation that I say to myself on a regular bases just wasn’t cutting it for me. I could say it then I would feel that it wasn’t true by the actions of other people, family, husband, coworkers-hell even the dog at times. I know that they are probably not thinking this but let’s face it…people like me can’t shake that feeling.
Then I got the email letting us know that our sponsored puppy got her home for Christmas. Now the kids want to sponsor more. This lifted all of our spirits. That makes me feel better now if I only had the money to sponsor one shelter a month. That’s for me to figure out another time. Do you do any charity work or give to charity to feel human?