Doodle(s)wash: 6/9

I am learning something new almost every time I try and paint something. Today I had the unfortunate circumstance of learning a new trigger for me. I almost gave up my blog, writing, painting, everything that calms me and gives me something to look forward too. I did everything possible to stay away from my computer today. I cleaned the car out, grocery shopping, cleaned the fridge, hell I even shaved the dog (it’s his grooming time).

I told my husband everything that was happening and he said, ‘If you need to quit, then quit. There is no reason to feel ashamed or bad about yourself because of it. But, would you really be ok with that? Or would you spend your time in the bed? Would you really let someone make you feel like the worse possible you all over again?’ I hated him for that or rather I hated when he was right. So, I sat down and painted and even started a short story. I think after dinner I might even work out some Fenton Friday brainstorming. Who knows.


Prompt Word: Trees

I’m NOT A Bad Person

This little affirmation that I say to myself on a regular bases just wasn’t cutting it for me. I could say it then I would feel that it wasn’t true by¬† the actions of other people, family, husband, coworkers-hell even the dog at times. I know that they are probably not thinking this but let’s face it…people like me can’t shake that feeling.

For the past month I have felt like poo and needed to do something to lift my spirits but to teach my kids a lesson since lately they have been getting down right spoiled and bratty (both my husband’s and mine fault…which I will own). I loaded everyone up on a cold Saturday before I had to go into work and went for a 30 minute drive to the animal shelter.

Here we played with dogs and cats then we sponsored a precious pit mix. The kids wanted to take her home but I stood my ground. We were there to sponsor her adoption fee. That way we are giving her a chance for a home before Christmas and the family a Christmas present. All the prospective family would have to is pass the requirements for adoption and give her a loving home. The kids really wanted her but understood that we have our fur-babies at home that need all of our love, support and attention.

Then I got the email letting us know that our sponsored puppy got her home for Christmas. Now the kids want to sponsor more. This lifted all of our spirits. That makes me feel better now if I only had the money to sponsor one shelter a month. That’s for me to figure out another time. Do you do any charity work or give to charity to feel human?

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