One Whole Year!

A year! I made it a year without smoking! Maybe I cheated by using Chantix but it worked for me. The dreams were hilarious! Now don’t get me wrong, there are times that I really want a cigarette. Like the times when my teen is tap dancing on my very last nerve. Or how about the times that I have chores crying with urgency to get done but my depression has a nice warm hug around me. Or even the times that I’m around people that are lighting cigarettes left and right and I’m sitting there holding a bottle of water like an adult (something that I wish I didn’t have to be at times).

I guess the point is, I had a goal a year ago and it’s been a year since I picked up a cigarette. I don’t have much in way of goals this year but focusing more on my new Norse heathen path, family, and maybe now and then get a doodle and some kind of writing done. Oh, and of course another job. But today, I’m just happy I made a year of something without quitting or giving up.

Have any of you completed a goal from a year ago? Either way, how do you feel about it? Are you going to try again? Are you going to try something else? Happy Monday everyone!

January 16, 2018

Resolution Progress

I thought I would mention the progress of operation ‘Quit Smoking’ resolution. Following the prescribed Chantix medication recommendations method of quitting I’m now on Day 4 without a cigarette. Now, all the people I mentioned it to gasped expressing concerns over my mental health status and then the issue that some patients have with dreams.
First off my doctor and I discussed the medication and my other CPTSD medications and both well aware of what could happen, warning signs, and what needs to be done if the side effects are too much for me. Second, my dreams are already horrifying to the point I wake up crying reliving past abuse. I’ll take my chances.
I didn’t have dreams the first week of taking the medication but the minute I stopped smoking I had my first dream. I swear it could be the best Sharknado installment. Personally, I haven’t seen any of them but would definitely watch this one.

With all the weather situations turning the sharks into killers that can fly through the air OUR human species came up with this brilliant idea to turn Islands into habitats which are surrounded by motes and a dome on the top with controlled weather inside. Imagine our own greenhouse. The motes separate the shark-infested waters from our dome. Now, inside these motes are genetically modified sharks to kill normal sharks that get to close or inside the mote. Let’s see, there was a clown shark, angler- hammerhead shark (you guessed it…the angler shark would fish for other sharks with his lighted fishing pole at the end of its head. But because it is shaped like a hammer there is one for each side.) You get the picture. What I did love about this is that the shark hybrids weren’t too outrageous.

There were weddings, family picnics, iconic American dream stuff and the mote also served as a way to deal with criminals so the crime rate was really REALLY low. Then one day an oceanic floor earthquake busted our dome and sharks from the outside got into the mote and started to school with the mutated sharks then you know what happened…they came after us, humans. We were able to makeshift secure our dome but were cornered by our own stupidity if you will. My mom was getting married to her boyfriend and why my dream state made him out to be Napoleon was beyond me. But the little guy was eaten by the clown shark. I thought that was kind of poetic. The dream ended with us figuring out how to kill off the surrounding sharks and get to a neighboring dome. It was my simulating another oceanic earthquake drying up part of the ocean (don’t ask me how) and killing the sharks. Then I wake up.

Now if the producers would like to discuss the future Sharknado movie…they can email or contact me. And yes…I did use Photoshop and haven’t used it in a while so deal with it. Oh, I have another dream that I could write about but this one was better and I’m sure I’ll have more.


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