A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 52

I have been running around like a mad woman trying to get everything packed for our heathen camping get together. I didn’t get to bed until late last night and I was up early full of nervous energy with my second interview this afternoon. After I’m done (hopefully with a job offer), I head home to finish packing the last minute cooler and we’re off. My goal is to come out of my shell and meet more likeminded people and get a little sketching done. I’ve been practicing on my phone posting my 365 Day photos and I think about have that nailed. Lots of nervous energy but it’s all for a good reason. To help calm myself a bit I thought I would read a stanza (here at work):

Pocket Version:

Something great is not always to be
given, praise is often for a trifle bought.
With half a loaf and tilted vessel I got
myself a comrade.

Again, this goes in hand with the last 3 stanzas advising about ‘fake’ friendships which can do more harm than good and ‘real’ friendship that both benefit and grow. The first line I mulled over for a bit and having a hard time with. What I think it’s implying is that friendly words are not always real and with unreal friendships that the favor is expected and entitled. The second line explains further that even though a friend may not have much to offer there’s a ‘real’ friendship there hiding in the imperfection.

Happy Friday Y’all!

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 51

I have been in an awful state since this weekend. I barely take photos and write so I’m going to try and start back with my Havamal Study.

Pocket Havamal

Hotter than fire love for five days burns
between false friends; but is quenched
when the sixth day comes, and-
friendship is all impaired.

I’m not sure what the timeline significance means but it doesn’t go to 9 days which 9 is important in Norse beliefs. However, the stanza as a whole is something I’m sure that we can all relate too. With fake friends or basically, people that aren’t on your side the friendship can seem new and awesome in the beginning. But, over a short period of time, the friendship isn’t what it once was. No one is getting anything from it. Weight is also lifted off your shoulders when you no longer have to visit with them.

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 50

Busy, anxiety-filled morning. I had a horrible dream last night that I failed at the job interview that I have scheduled today. I have checked and double checked my presentation and I just need to clean the screen of my laptop. I’m kind of upset that I can’t find the Windex especially since I just used it. UGH. I’m going to finish this and get ready for work. Then I’ll rush home and change into my interview clothes. I want to do a stanza today to help me calm down.

Pocket Version:
A tree withers that on a hill-top stands;
protects it neither bark nor leaves: such is
the man whom no one favours:
why should he live long?

This stanza goes further to explain yesterday’s stanza. It examples that a tree can still suffer when not protected by a cover of some sore (bark and leaves). The same goes for a person that no one cares about. Everyone needs someone to care about them or some form of companionship. We need affection and companionship. Helping someone through difficult times even if it’s just being there to listen to their problems is a huge help and believe me, it helps.

Happy Thursday Y’all!

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 49

I have a LOT to do today. I need to finish my offline portfolio presentation for the interview tomorrow AND I need to get something ‘springy’ for the interview as well. In my true procrastination nature and not being positive about the interview has me scrambling. I’ll own this simply because I know who I am and my own self-destructive behavior. I’m hoping that I can get most of this done and in bed early. I’m going to start my day off with my stanza:

Pocket Version:
My garments in a field I gave away to
two wooden men: heroes they seemed to
be, when they got cloaks: exposed to insult
is a naked man.

I think this is a three-part stanza. The first giving something off your back to help another. I used to say that my dad, ‘would give the shirt off his back.’ He would do anything to help another person. The stanza goes to explain that once garments were given the men seemed like heroes. I think this says that when a person receives something from another person (kind gesture of some sort) they seem whole again and that they are people and fellow human beings as well. The last bit of the stanza, about being exposed to insult is a naked man. In modern language, the man isn’t really naked but he is in need. It’s easy for people to ridicule and insult someone that is down on their luck. It’s harder but proves your integrity if a person can help another in some small way. I could be completely wrong in this understanding but I think I’m on the right path.

Happy Wednesday Y’all!

Event Anxiety

I’m taking a day off from work today so I can recuperate from the Ostar event with the kindred. No, I wasn’t drunk or hungover. I got ample sleep so it’s not from lack of sleep and trying to explain the fuzz is difficult. I just told my supervisor that I had a stomach bug. In reality, it was my body trying to mend from anxiety and fear. To join the kindred a person needs to speak up in front of everyone at an event such as Yule or Ostar. The anxiety is crippling and I could never speak up and ask. What if everyone voted no?

The Ostar egg hunt went great, the kids had fun painting, and the fire spinning was beautiful. The ritual was moving as always…well, they move me in the sense that it feels right and I’m at home. I was chosen or how it was put, ‘Volutold’ (a cross between volunteering and being told) to be this event’s Valkyrie. Immediately I started to panic. I was reassured that I had one simple line (that I had to say to everyone) and move on. I couldn’t tell you how many times I practiced that in my head. Over and over the line repeated. Not only do I have that going through my head so I don’t screw it up (because it’s a great honor to), I was working on not tripping and falling into the fire or impaling myself with the drinking horn. I think it all went well, I didn’t screw up the line I needed to ask nor did I impale myself on the horn. In the end, it was time to read runes. To uphold the rune reading four wooden ones are thrown to choose people to help in this by reaching out but also sacrificing something. You guessed it, one landed in front of me. I had nothing on me other than my Mjolnir, wedding rings, and a silver tree ring that was an anniversary gift. I wasn’t giving up my wedding rings and my Mjolnir didn’t mean as much as my anniversary ring. So it was the ring that went into the fire. The sacrifice had to be meaningful and this was the only thing I had. My finger is bare but truth be told there isn’t any regret.

As the evening wore on our Sumbel was taking place under the northern lights. I don’t mean we could see them but we were RIGHT UNDER the lights. As I didn’t think things could be any more perfect the moon was rising over a house and the glow was an orange magnificent light. It came time for the circle and I made it through the first two rounds. I hailed the Gods and ancestors but then it was time for the third. Oath, toast, or boast. Oaths are not a no-no but are taken with the utmost care. If you fail with an oath it will affect the kindred Wyrd. That scares me so. I didn’t have anything to toast to but I could have toasted our hosts. DAMN IT! Why didn’t I think of that then? Oh, yeah (wave at my anxiety here). I had a boast which was my job interview I landed for the 28th. Before I could speak, a wonderful person tried to encourage me to ask to join. It was horrible but in a good way. Everyone was staring and people had to vote. I almost threw up twice and held my breath waiting to hear a ‘nay’ but none came.

Now, my body is trying to get better from the panic, fear, and anxiety felt on Saturday? Probably wondering why if it was so bad, do I put myself through this? Because it’s that important to me. Heathenism and Asatru mean that much to me. So today, I’m trying to regroup and think about the responsibility that I have asked to take on. Not only am I learning a new path in life, upholding the modern heathen ways, but I’m also gaining a family. I hope I don’t fail at that. I hope I don’t fail at anything.

So…happy Monday everyone!

 

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 47

Today is going to be a busy day and even busier when my kiddos are in tow. The hubs is working late so our Friday errands are all being completed by me. But, he works hard and things still need to get done but in this way, I can take my time. I also need to get ready for our Ostar celebration with the kindred tomorrow which normally I’m on top of but I have NO IDEA what I’m going to make for a dish to pass? I’m still super excited and I’m working up the nerve NOW to speak up in front of the kindred. Here we are at stanza 47.

Pocket Version:

I was once young, I was journeying
alone, and lost my way; rich I thought
myself, when I met another.
Man is the joy of man.

How true is this? Being young and finding a friend that you can relate too? Being a teen was a difficult time for myself and I’m sure many others. It’s those friends that you find and it seems to make everything a little more bearable. Then growing up happens but I’m sure that’s a different story. Friends, even in adulthood, bring so much happiness in your life. I’m super happy to be traveling a little ways this weekend to meet with the kindred. As the more I get to know them the more I can feel a friendship form.

Happy Friday Y’all!

 

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 45

I’m late posting (writing in general) this morning due to my having to search vectors for a logo to incorporate on a shirt for work. Why am I doing it from home? Because I’m BLOCKED from most sites. I’m even blocked from viewing images just to see if that’s what’s needed. But here we are at stanza 45:

Pocket Version

If thou a hast another, whom thou little
trustest, yet wouldst good from him
derive, thou shouldst speak him fair, but
think craftily, and repay treachery with lies.

This is a follow up not only to yesterday’s stanza but also to Stanza 42. I think that this stanza is advising that if you were to have a person that you call a friend but not one that you fully trust or even call to confide the most embarrassing or difficult situations in, it’s ok to still be friends and to speak nicely of them. Don’t talk about them behind their back and keep the knowledge of their true self you yourself. Think before speaking with them. If they have done you wrong in some form or another, the next time you speak with them, don’t tell them the truth in anything about what is going on with yourself. ‘How’re things going at work?’ Instead of me telling them that it’s a toxic place I would simply reply, ‘Things are good. What’s new with you?’ If I were to tell them what was truly happening that could come back and bite me in the ass. Another lesson for the kiddies.

Happy Tuesday Y’all!

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 44

I have Mr. Rogers on TV this morning (it’s super early) and I needed a break from the news and I’ll get to that in a minute. The episode that is airing is ‘giving and receiving.’ Mr. Roger’s gave the deliveryman, Mr. McFeely a box with cookies as a gift. The deliveryman thanked him, appreciatively and Mr. Rogers explained how the thank you, appreciation and excitement was a gift in itself. Made me smile because that reminds me of Stanza 39.

The news is breaking my heart here lately. The brutality of the New Zealand attack to the senseless murder of a young girl. I’m a heathen, not a white supremacist and I wish the symbols used in heathery and/or paganism wouldn’t be stolen and used for hate. Everything on the news this morning was hard to understand. Here it is, Monday, and I’m going to read today’s stanza, try and understand it, and get to work.

Pocket Version:

Know, if thou hast a friend whom
thou fully trustest, and from whom
thou woulds’t good derive, though shouldst blend
thy mind with his, and gifts exchange, and
often go to see him.

The Havamal is huge on having true friends. When did that become a concept that no one understands anymore?  What I understand from this stanza is that if you have a true friend, first, nothing but good could come from that. A friend that has a positive effect on your life and you to there’s.  Have a visit with them, or spend time with them and learn from each other but also enjoy each other’s company. Now, the exchanging of gifts doesn’t necessarily mean materialistic/physical items but laughter, appreciation, and time are given during the time being with each other.

I like this stanza as it’s one of the more positive ones and it highlights the benefits of having true friends. I have spent so much time being burned by other people that I don’t really have a true friend. Maybe I should place an ad?

Happy Monday Y’all!

 

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 43

I got up, weighed in, and decided to work out. I also wanted to take time this morning before the weekend hits to read a stanza. It seems that on the weekends there is so much going on and it starts on Friday. No, I’m not going out and partying. Nope, I’m grocery shopping, running errands, and doing mom stuff. This is me taking the time to read my stanza.

Pocket Version:
To his friend a man should be a friend;
to him and to his friend; but of his foe
no man shall the friend’s friend be.

I grew up with my dad telling me some similar advice, ‘don’t be a friend to an enemy of a friend.’ He said there is no loyalty or integrity to be a friend to your friends enemy. I wish more people understood this as there are more backstabbing and fake friends these days. No good can come from such a friendship. Stay true to yourself and your friends. Here’s a lesson for the kiddies.

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 42

Morning Y’all. I’m trying to start the day with a positive vibe but my depression isn’t really giving me a chance to do so. I thought I’ll start my Havamal study early this morning rather than rushing through it so I’m able to get to work. We are still in the Gestaþáttr (guest/traveler/hospitality/behavior section) and it’s covered a lot so far. One thing I’ve learned and I hope you have too is that it some way it is still relatable in these modern times. Here I am at Stanza 42:

Pocket Version:
To his friend a man should be a friend,
and gifts with gifts requite. Laughter with
laughter men should receive, but repay
treachery with lies.

I do not have other translations at the moment from people such as Chisholm or Terry at the ready. TOOHG has been a great help with my journey so far but as I go further I will need to seek other translations for help. I happen to really like this stanza as it’s relatable through some of my own life lessons. I feel that it’s highlighting gifting between loved ones and friends to be equal and enjoyable for both parties. The fact that laughter is mentioned as a gift goes with Stanza 41 that not all gifts are measured in materialistic ways. If you are able to bring a smile and joy to a friend or loved one in a time when needed the gift, in turn, is worth a whole lot. This is especially true for me because there are times that a good laugh and company is something that I desperately need. This could also be when someone is will to sit with you and just be there without speaking and you being able to do the same speaks to the soul of a person and those types of gifts are not measured in price.

The last line pertaining to repaying treachery with lies speaks volumes. Why spend anything or gift a piece of yourself or time to someone that has betrayed you in some form or another? It may not necessarily mean with a ‘lie’ but a fake smile or laugh in passing is an empty as their worth to you. I think the lesson here is don’t waste any time or money or your true self on someone that is fake. This stanza is applicable to a modern heathen and I need to apply it more and remember to be just as treacherous as the people I work with.

Happy Wednesday Y’all.

 

 

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 40

Daylight savings time has really got me screwed up. I’m so late I couldn’t even get my 15-minute walk in. I’m taking the time to read a stanza. Then I have to figure out where my comments section went to, AGAIN. Ugh! WP, what gives?

Pocket Version
Of the property which he has gained
no man should suffer need; for the hated
oft is spared what for the dear was destined.
Much goes worse than is expected.

Terry:
A man should spend his hard-earned money
on whatever he may want;
saving for dear ones may serve the detested:
things often don’t work out our way.

So this one is similar but in the same token not to stanza 39. From what I gathered, spend on what is needed and splurge when you can. Take care of the necessities first. The second part was a little more difficult for me. I think it means if things can go wrong. You can leave something behind for your loved ones but it could cause more problems. I’m really guessing here as this was a tough one for me. Or, maybe it’s because of daylight savings and I’m exhausted. Thoughts?

Happy ‘exhausted’ Monday Y’all!

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 39

It’s Thursday or Thor’s day (again learning something new) and I’m here at work taking a break from a negative supervisor. I’m trying to figure out how to make the impossible possible but have hit a brick wall which brings me here.

Pocket Version:
I have never found a man so wealthy,
or so hospitable that he refused a gift; or of
his property so abundant that he scorned a
repayment.

Chisholm:
I never found a generous man
who was so free with his food,
that he would turn it down, or so generous
as to loath a gift were it given.

Ok, there is apparently a LOT going on with this verse. At first reading of the stanza, it is more or less speaking of human nature. Why would we turn down a gift? It doesn’t matter what we have or how much we have of something a gift always seems to translate into thought and caring. After reading some on TOOHG, they talk about something I hadn’t thought about, gift debt. I know ‘debt’ has a negative tendency but it’s not always about material objects or money it could also be about friendship, time, loyalty and such. I personally appreciate loyalty and friendship but small objects are fun as well. Look how excited I got when my husband gifted me legos.

Society has taught us to be humble and to give gifts without expectations but this teaches that it wasn’t always so. Expectations are warranted in some form or another for gift giving. I know that sounds petty and materialistic but you can’t put a price on friendship or advice.

Happy Thor’s Day
‘Thursday means Thor’s day in Old English. Thor is represented riding a chariot drawn by goats and wielding the hammer.’

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 38

I have been up for a while doing a little research on a subject that I don’t know much about other than the basics. I normally don’t rise to the occasion of proving an individual wrong but when it comes to dog ownership, particularly what is considered a ‘dangerous breed’ I’m a huge advocate. I own 3 of the most docile pit bulls so I felt compelled. I did my research and was reminded of all the stanzas about being overly boastful with ignorant knowledge. I only gave enough information to cause the individuals to think and not to feel stupid.

Today’s stanza is pretty straight forward, I think:

Pocket Version:
Leaving in the field his arms, let no
man go a foot’s length forward; for it is
hard to know when on the way a man may
need his weapon.

Chisholm:
A man should not step one foot
forth in the field without weapons.
One cannot know, when on the road,
when he will need his spear.

I think in a general sense for today’s society is to always be prepared. You never know what could happen and come your way. You may not need a weapon but having knowledge or even basic skills will help keep you safe or at least out of any drama.

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 37

I’m super rushed this morning only because my sleep was broken by the roar of my husband’s snore. Seperate rooms are sounding like a good idea the more I think about it. I’m taking time to do this for me this morning.

Pocket Version:
One’s own house is best, small though it
be, at home is everyone his own master.
Bleeding at heart is he, who has to ask for
food at every meal-tide.

Chisholm:
One’s own home is best, though it is small.
To each, home is hall.
His heart will bleed
who has to ask for each meal’s meat.

This is kind of like stanza 36 reminding me that no matter how small and humble my home it’s still mine. This stanza goes further to explain how painful it is for someone to ask for shelter and food. I know what it’s like to go without and how it hurt me to ask for help of any kind. I tend to ask someone if they would like something or ask if I can help so the other person doesn’t have to feel what I feel.

Be kind and happy Tuesday Y’all!

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 34

Whoa…I’m running late! My body must be tired because I woke up an hour late. Maybe it was the cake that I had last night. Yes, Y’all. I was SUPER naughty with my diet this week but I had some of the best food. That’s ok. I’ll get back on my diet.

I’ll start here and hopefully, the rest of the day will fall into place (not so behind).

Pocket Version:
Long is and indirect the way to a bad
friend’s, though by the road he dwell;
but to a good friend’s the paths lie direct,
though he lives far away.

Chisholm:
It is a long way to the false friend
though he dwell by the road.
but a straight way lies to the good friend,
though he lives far away.

I think these hold true even in today’s society and even more so among heathens. I find that my husband and I will travel for an hour or so to be with kindred. It’s long nights, great conversation, and so much knowledge and information going around. It’s those trips we look forward too. Although my husband and I both agreed that if we are taking our son along the dangerous road conditions during the winter we will not attend.  What I’m saying it doesn’t matter the distance it’s worth the trip. Now, with fake friends, it’s a hassle and feels stressful to even attempt a get-together. I have some of those types of friends that live in my town and I feel so much stress just dealing with the thought of the situation. Basically, it doesn’t matter how far the visit it’s with a pure purpose for a true friend. The fake ones take longer to get to and it doesn’t matter how long the distance.

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 33

Depression and anxiety can run a toll on a person. Compound that with a toxic work environment, my bed seemed like the best solution for my day. Instead, I thought about my quick study and a new Twittering Tales to write about got me out of bed. The kiddo getting excited about his new music class and practicing a recorder gave me the little push of excitement that I needed to get some positivity this morning. I got on the treadmill, enjoyed a hot shower, and started the day. Here we are, stanza 33:

Pocket Version:
Early meals a man should often take,
unless to a friend’s house he goes; else he
will sit and mope, will seem half-famished,
and of few things inquire.

Chisholm:
A man should often get his meal early.
When he visits friends, otherwise he sits and idles,
eats like he were starving
without even asking.

There are several translations for this stanza and one is different from the other. I think this could be sound advice. If there are plans to have a meal at a gathering it’s best to eat a small meal before leaving. Don’t want to be that person that gets there and eats like they haven’t eaten in days. This will give you a chance to enjoy the meal with your family, friends, and or kindred along with the conversation. Could be wrong but this is what I take from it.

Happy Tuesday Y’all!

 

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 31

Yesterday everything that could go wrong did but I didn’t stress. I was super proud of myself for not letting my mind overthink situations. I did my job, in fact, I actually cared about the final product. I was also able to voice my concerns and opinions about certain things not that the person (one of the many in the office that treat me like I don’t matter) actively listened. In the end, the company will make money and gain more recognition off of my hard work. I realized the problem with their snobbiness and the fact they believe that they’re better than everyone else is THEIR problem. Action reflects leadership and they learn from what they see their supervisors do.

I didn’t get a chance to have coffee with my friend due to health problems with her and we have made plans to make plans next week (if weather permits). We talked on the phone and that was just as good. Up in a good mood and continuing with the Havamal study. I have to say that it’s helping through my day to day life.

Pocket Version:
Clever thinks himself the guest who
jeers a guest, if he takes to flight. Knows
it not certainly he who prates at meat,
whether he babble among foes.

Chisholm:
He is wise who leaves the flyting
when guest mocks guest.
He who grins at the feast
does not know that he chatters among foes.

I think this is a continuation from stanza 30. I think it’s saying it’s better to leave while mocking and making fun of guests is starting to happen. If you sit quietly and grin or snicker you are actually not sitting with friends. They will do the same to you. I think that I couldn’t leave however but try to get the person to walk away with me or say something in their defense. The people being rude are already going to talk about me why not give them a reason.

Happy Wednesday everyone!

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 30

Super proud of myself this morning (so far) woke up in a decent mood with a brief moment of irritation courtesy of my husband, made my lunch, curled my hair, and even invited an old friend to meet for coffee this afternoon. I even have time to read my stanza for this morning. Reading it yesterday was a huge mood booster and I’m going for day two.

Pocket Version:
For a gazing-stock no man shall have
another, although he come a stranger to his
house. Many a one thinks himself wise, if
he is not questioned, and can sit in a dry
habit.

Chisholm:
Do not ridicule another man,
though he is kin. He oft seems wise
who is not questioned,
and leaves dry skinned.

So my pocket version (translated by Thorpe) seems a night and day difference from Chisholm’s translation but there are a few different translations and I would contribute that to individuals trying to translate Old Norse. I think the advice here is unless you want to cause awkwardness among friends and family do not question their intent or reason for visiting. I have family that seeks out a way to ridicule me for the visit or reason. It’s embarrassing when this happens for all involved and doesn’t end well. If the situation doesn’t happen then more time getting together would happen. So I take the last two lines seem to explain that better than I just did.

OK, first, who can teach me Old Norse? Or lead me in the direction that won’t cost me an arm and a leg? Second, if I have coffee this afternoon with my friend then my 365-day project will be a little late and/or it’s going to be a picture of coffee or coffee related.

Happy Tuesday Y’all!

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 29

Today is Monday and I did a little extra self-care and I’m in a great mood. Although my husband walking through this morning sounding like a cross between Chewbacca and Vader with his cold did make me cringe. I’m trying to get back to my schedule and I think this week may let me as there isn’t so much planned (that I’m aware of). This morning I’m going to start where I left off at bringing me to stanza 29.

Pocket Version:
He utters too many futile words who
is never silent; a garrulous tongue, if it be
not checked, sings often to its own harm.

Chisholm:
He who never shuts up
blathers powerless staves.
The speedy tongue that never stops
often brings itself harm.

I like Chisholm’s version because the translation is a little easier to understand than my pocket version. Well, at least quicker. This stanza seems to continue with know when to be quiet during conversations and speak when your knowledge of a subject is a bit better. It’s ok to carry on full conversations and learn but careful what you ramble. Those words could possibly come back to bite you in the butt. I’ll remember that today but I’m also going to remember to stay positive.

Happy Monday Y’all!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 28

I needed to get back to this study after a defeating week at work. I felt myself around the kindred and an actual person that mattered. I got to talk with people about Asatru, them, and myself and Y’all know that’s a HUGE deal for me (being social). Then I go back to my toxic work environment and everything just went downhill for me. I’m trying to keep up with my writing and pushing myself to not give up on my 365 Day project because it’s one of the few things that I can control. That I can do with my own vision in mind and no one can take it away or the moment of completion away. So here we are at Stanza 28:

Pocket Translation:
He thinks himself wise, who can ask
questions and converse also; conceal his
ignorance no one can, because it circulates
among men.

Chisholm:
Wise seems he who knows
how to ask and answer.
What goes about among men,
cannot be hidden from men.

I feel that this stanza is speaking of holding a conversation and being able to ask and answer questions with knowledge. We all learn from holding conversations and asking questions but we also pass on the knowledge we may have about the subject. The last two lines are a bit confusing for me but OTOOHGs suggests that you can’t hide information from people. Once it’s out-it’s out. Then wouldn’t it come full circle back to the first two lines? That how I take it.

It’s Thursday and I’m going to get ready for work but first a satisfying breakfast. Happy Valentines Y’all!

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