Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 55

I know, I know. I haven’t been posting but believe me, there will be a bunch of my 365-day images posted and what I would think to be an awesome recap. I’ve been working overtime this week as Easter is this weekend. This means that my schedule is MORE than screwed up to the point that it has affected my eating habits. I haven’t even had a chance to be active. The ONLY thing I managed was to eat semi-healthy and not do much anything else but work and sleep. Oh, and the pizza.

 

Bear with me guys…I’m hoping to catch up this weekend.

Happy Friday!

A Heathen Learning Experience

When my family and I headed out with another kindred member for a two-hour road trip, we didn’t know what to think. The member that rode with us has stayed at the camp a couple times before so he was telling us about how much land there was and how it was donated for pagan groups to have a safe place to practice.

We arrived and it was exactly like I was hoping it would be. I only had one bar of reception which was enough for my girls to get a hold of me if needed. It was quiet, calm, and an overall relaxing experience. No, I didn’t get time to draw or anything and kept pretty busy. Now, with my social anxiety, I wasn’t prepared to go out and be a social butterfly but I did talk to people. Saturday, I made pancakes for everyone (I’m most at home in a kitchen) and made sure the kiddos had breakfast first. Other heathen believers from other kindreds came for the meeting and that’s when I learned (quickly) that there are people that look down on anyone including people that are trying to learn and follow the same path and beliefs as them.

Picture it, we are all sitting around the table, passing the horn and making introductions. I’m literally trying not to vomit on my boots. At the other end of the table is our host (the individual that donated his land for us and others to use) and sitting next to him are 3-4 men representing other kindreds. At first, their knowledge astounded me and made me realize that there is A LOT I need to learn. Then came the condescending tones and the group of men didn’t teach any of us ‘newbies’ anything to help us along our journey. One thing that frightened me a bit was the talk of organizing heathenry. That shook me a bit to the point it felt like history was repeating itself. I chose the heathen path BECAUSE it wasn’t an organized religion/belief. I admit that I would like to me more traditional in that way but not to the point where heathens need one leader and follow them. Then there was the discussion about enforcing accountability. I stood up and stepped away from the table. Enforcing accountability will lead to people not wanting to heathen and encourage hate.  I believe in my Gods and Goddesses and trust myself.

Then the article came out. One of the members from a visiting kindred that sat and drank and supped with us decided that he was going to write an article that was rather condescending. Now, it takes A LOT for me to speak in front of my own kindred but I felt utterly stupid reading what he had written and labeled me as a ‘newbie’ as if it was bad. Instead of imparting wisdom and some basic information he used us as guinea pigs for his article. He mentioned the men that were seated next to him that had the most knowledge but not one female. He also came across as one that is folkish or believes you need direct ancestry and lineage to follow the heathen way. The bloodline, HIS bloodline is all he really boasted about and gave off the vibe if anyone isn’t on his level of knowledge need to get their ass in gear but ONLY if they have the pedigree.

I know I made that sound all negative and that I didn’t have a great time but that was only a small part. He wrote an article (poorly written) with his opinions and STILL didn’t educate others. What I did learn and experience is a sense of community and bond between other people from different walks of life. I learned that we are all at different levels of our journey and it’s completely acceptable. This one guy taught me that there are others like him out there and it’s ok. They are going to be who they are and we can learn from them.

Sunday morning I was able to make everyone biscuits and gravy (southern style) and it felt great doing something I love and being able to share it with others. I was able to connect to other people including one person that understood me almost as well I do. Kids were kids and we even had a Scottish man playing guitar. Lots of laughs and learning bringing in an all in all great weekend.

This is just a mild recap as there is more to come about my week. Any heathens that have opinions I would like to hear from you. Any knowledge and advice you have pass it on.

Happy Thorsdagr Y’all!

 

Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 44

After this past weekend camping event with the kindred, I thought that I would have gained. There were junk food and all sorts of mead not to mention some stressful situations. According to my fitbit, I wasn’t as active as I should have been but in reality, I was more active. I have a lot to catch up on but we’re going to start with this week’s weigh-in.

I would’ve been happy with being the same weight. Hell, I would have been happy with even gaining a pound but to my surprise, I lost a pound. I’m home with my son as he had dental work done yesterday so more writing and possible painting will appear. Not to mention my 365-day project will be one photo purge once I get to editing.

Down a pound and hopefully more than one next week.

Happy Thursday Y’all!

 

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 52

I have been running around like a mad woman trying to get everything packed for our heathen camping get together. I didn’t get to bed until late last night and I was up early full of nervous energy with my second interview this afternoon. After I’m done (hopefully with a job offer), I head home to finish packing the last minute cooler and we’re off. My goal is to come out of my shell and meet more likeminded people and get a little sketching done. I’ve been practicing on my phone posting my 365 Day photos and I think about have that nailed. Lots of nervous energy but it’s all for a good reason. To help calm myself a bit I thought I would read a stanza (here at work):

Pocket Version:

Something great is not always to be
given, praise is often for a trifle bought.
With half a loaf and tilted vessel I got
myself a comrade.

Again, this goes in hand with the last 3 stanzas advising about ‘fake’ friendships which can do more harm than good and ‘real’ friendship that both benefit and grow. The first line I mulled over for a bit and having a hard time with. What I think it’s implying is that friendly words are not always real and with unreal friendships that the favor is expected and entitled. The second line explains further that even though a friend may not have much to offer there’s a ‘real’ friendship there hiding in the imperfection.

Happy Friday Y’all!

365 Day Post: 94

Ok… it’s not what it looks like.  Ugh, it is but not as bad as it could be. This late post is brought to you by a woman with so much to do and so little time.  Picture it, leave work and pick up kids,  rush home and cook dinner.  From there figure out meal plan for camping trip and go shopping for trip. Also need to make something for a dish to pass so fudge it is. Now that all the shopping is done I had to pack and bake fudge. I have an interview tomorrow so I need to prepare for tomorrow and the camping trip.  I didn’t feel like making my lunch and picked up a salad instead.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 43

Yesterday, as you may have read, I completely failed and had a turtle sundae. Oh my was it DELICIOUS! This week I did try buckling down. I didn’t indulge in too much at girls night last weekend and I’m going to work SUPER hard on packing a cooler full of healthy stuff that I can have while camping with fellow heathens.

This week I ate more fish and cooked chicken instead of processed lunch meat for sandwiches and my quick chili. This is late because I was late cooking fish for my lunch and now I’m quick writing here at work. I’m officially back down 25lbs! OK…23 more pounds to go.

 

365 Day Post: 93

Ok, I buckled. I know weigh-in is tomorrow and I think I did pretty good. It was paint night with the girls last weekend and I tried calculating the points as best as possible. Tonight though, I had a RELENTLESS sweet tooth and the seasoning drive-in style diner serves some of the best ice cream and turtle sundaes. Yup, I got one and I don’t regret NOTHING!

I’m also trying to get used to posting from my phone since I will be attending a heathen gathering and camping. I want to be able to candidly capture images to post.

A Quick Daily Study: Stanza 51

I have been in an awful state since this weekend. I barely take photos and write so I’m going to try and start back with my Havamal Study.

Pocket Havamal

Hotter than fire love for five days burns
between false friends; but is quenched
when the sixth day comes, and-
friendship is all impaired.

I’m not sure what the timeline significance means but it doesn’t go to 9 days which 9 is important in Norse beliefs. However, the stanza as a whole is something I’m sure that we can all relate too. With fake friends or basically, people that aren’t on your side the friendship can seem new and awesome in the beginning. But, over a short period of time, the friendship isn’t what it once was. No one is getting anything from it. Weight is also lifted off your shoulders when you no longer have to visit with them.

365 Day Project: 92

There’s a baseball game happening and when I went out to catch a photo for tonight I was a little bummed. We have a storm moving in and the field lights drowned out the storm clouds. I drove to a seasonal drive-in style diner and the sky still didn’t show up. I think I need to look up some more tutorials for lighting and clouds.

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