What is wrong with me?

I find that I’m asking myself more and more this month. I had HUGE plans for everything that I wanted to do and complete. The goals that I’ve set for myself are falling by the wayside. I sat down to write yesterday for Fenton and it was GARBAGE! Nothing made sense and it seemed like it was dragging on and on and not going anywhere. Is Fenton even worth pursuing? I would like to think so but I wasn’t feeling it. Was it because I’m not feeling good? Distracted?

I’m behind on my painting and doodles and it all just feels like I’m drowning. Then to throw in the mix learning about Norse mythology, gardening, weaving PLUS dieting; I think I bit off more than I can chew. Or did I? Do I just stop writing altogether and let my blog go dormant? (I REALLY don’t want to do that.)

I need to figure out what I REALLY want to do…priorities. Is there a way I can earn a wage, stay home, and do what I love? If I wasn’t at work all day I might be able to get everything done that I want along with exploring new things. Write or not to write?

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  1. Don’t put yourself under undue pressure. Relax and rest and when the inspiration comes then take advantage of it. I always find if I sit down and try to force the creativity to flow, the well dries up.

    Don’t give up on Fenton though, I thought it was a really interesting project. 🙂

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  2. When I feel like that, I find that making a list helps me. To SEE it visually will sometimes bring it back down to a manageable size. I look at it and say “oh, that’s not so bad”. When in my mind the situation seems insurmountable. You might try it. Good luck! ❤

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  3. I think we are sometimes our own worst enemy. We make goals that often are not attainable. Start afresh, start again tomorrow, let go of what is not done and move on from it. Keep doing what you love and ditch what doesn’t make you smile.

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    1. I’m going to try. I need to find a way to get creative again without feeling like it’s a chore. I know the problem is stemming from my day job. I can’t really quit that but I need to find that part of me again.


  4. There isn’t anything wrong with you. Whatever thoughts you’re having right now are simply thoughts. They may be pleasant or unpleasant or neutral, but they don’t define the ineffable “you.” The thoughts will pass. In the land of walk the goats, they’re simply thoughts spoken by one character (among many) that occupy your mind. They’ll leave the stage eventually. Probably sooner if you view them with neutral curiosity. THAT came from one of my characters.

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